the end

this would be the third friday in a row of no show.  coward.  this should make it easier to let go.  then go….

because i’m brain-fried but silently exploding

so true and wisely so ….   from someone  called   

….   Delicious Ambiguity …  who wrote the following

• I knew that you were special when we talked that first time and there isn’t anything that has changed my mind. You don’t know it but you are one of the most wonderful people in my life and though I know we don’t talk as often as we should, I appreciate you more than you’ll ever know.
• Always make your absence felt in such a way that somebody misses you but not your absence be so long that somebody starts learning to live without you.
• Sometimes it’s not the possibility of rejection that frightens us. It is the thought of not knowing what happens next once you both find out that you feel the same way…
• it hurts to love someone when you can’t tell that someone what you really feel.. sometimes you get hurt without him knowing.. you get jealous yet you have no right to feel that way.. you want his time yet you are not in the position to demand for it… your heart is breaking in silence.. but despite of this, you continue to love because somehow in this hurtful love, there are still happy thoughts and simple moments to look forward to.. even if it means being just a mere friend…
• what is unconditional love? it’s when the person you love tears you into pieces and yet you still smile and say, "you know what, you don’t have to love me back.. i will be okay"..  [ uggh! martyr ! —   joy] 
• If saying goodbye hurts so much, why do we say goodbye? Because it hurts so much more to keep holding on to something that isn’t there. Like you’re hanging off a ledge and someone is jumping up and down on your hands but you still can’t let go. Like when you’re little and you’re being tickled…you shout for it to stop because it’s torture, but then you go back for more, because somehow being tickled makes you feel safe and special. Holding on is like that…but the torture is painful…and it doesn’t make you smile. That’s why we’re supposed to say goodbye. That’s why we’re meant to let go…

It doesn’t take a reason to love someone,
but it does to like someone. You don’t love
someone because you want to, you love someone
because you are destined too. It’s because you
fall in Love with them, that you then try to
find a reason, but you always come up with
the answer, No reason!

Should I Smile Because You’re My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We’ll Ever Be??

it`s hard to wait around
for something that you know will never happen..
but it`s harder to stop
when you know it`s everything you`ve always wanted

its hard to let go of someone who has touched your life, but it hurts even more to say goodbye to someone who was never yours and yet changed your  life the most

now i know that the worst feeling in the world is not losing the one that you love, but loving the one that you could never have.

how will you know that your love has faded?  ….. when it doesn’t hurt as much anymore.