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two posts from what seems oh-so-long ago
August 26, 2009 should i?
i know that it may take a while to get you out of my system. i don’t think i will forget - it was much too good an experience to throw into the can despite the hurt. getting you out of my system simply means being able to think about you without the pinch and the tear-welling. maybe i keep you alive by making you my sounding board. pretend that you'’re still on the other line. should i ? nahhh… it will make it harder to move on.
dots
dots. several uses — dotting the I emphasises the Me, a dot ends a sentence because one either has nothing else to say or wants to move on to another idea, and several dots denote infinity or indicate something unfinished.
so i have dotted the conversation with the falcon last night. he has nothing else to say perhaps because he has lost interest, and if so, i have to move on. thus, the dot. painful but needed to keep my self- respect. did i put one dot or several? the mind intended one but the heart drew a chain of dots.
mission is ending
August 19, 2009“how do I pack my dreams, longings, laughter, friends, memories and reveries to bring with me to where I am going?” someone said. exactly how i felt as i was preparing to leave cambodia one year and two months ago. i could not get myself to pack my stuff then until the very last moment.
now i am preparing to leave mongolia sans that feeling. in fact,rather raring to go. cambodia and mongolia for me, in fairness, are not on the same league. how can one compare one year to 13 years of staying in a place. one has become a home, while the other has proved to be simply a lay-over.
comparatively — there weren’t any profound memories nor deep friendships, except with 3-4 perhaps, to regret leaving behind.
there might just be, perhaps, something very special that mongolia will hold for me…but that is something that i hope to find out in the last two weeks remaining.


